As a child my belief in God was shaped by fear. Not a fear of reverence as mentioned in the bible. It wasn’t until I broke free from that place that I begin to understand and experience God in a different light. But as you and I both know when we don’t confront issues head on, they never disappear. I remember the day I surrendered and gave my life to Christ. I remember the outfit, walking down the church aisle and whispering in the minister’s ear, that I was ready to give my life to God and partake in water baptism. The days after that were never as I imagined. I went through life years after that day never fully understanding what it meant to have a REAL relationship with Christ. I was taught that my relationship was dependent on my actions, my clothes, and my obedience to a pastor. I believed that every consequence would lead me closer to a place in hell. So my relationship with Christ was created through spiritual abuse and bondage.
I grew to realize that our life is a constant ebb and flow of one word-faith. And the day you give God your yes, there is a price to pay. The enemy puts a bounty on your head to kill, steal and destroy everything you’re connected to. The TURN UP is super real when you give your yes. I was in my 30s when I completely walked away from an organization that had me bound in my beliefs and when I connected with leaders who taught me the true, living Word of God. I learned the real essence of my God, His true character, and I begin to learn and understand what it meant to be a child of the Most High. The bible tells us that “God SO loved the world that He GAVE his only son and that whosoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” Reading that verse over and over one day had me in tears, realizing that God loved me so much to not allow me to perish. That one verse was so powerful as it begin to strip the bondage of guilt, shame, and pain off of me. Realize this-the areas of hurt, pain, disappointments, etc. lead us closer to Christ. Yes, the pain points are necessary to help us grow stronger in Him. Recently, I said yes and all hell broke loose in my world! I felt alone, disappointed, broken, used…I can go on and on about the emotions but I recently read a book that lifted me to another level of freedom. For in Christ there is freedom, there is liberty.
“For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son…”John 3:16 (KJV)
Have you ever looked at a quilt and how intricately each piece of string is woven? We often say that God makes no mistakes. I know I’ve said it but did not believe it. I would ask Him why. I would question how could this happen to me. I would turn away angry with no real understanding of circumstances and situations. Do you truly believe with your whole heart that God makes no mistakes? When it comes to our lives like that quilt is so intricately woven, stitch by stitch, with no hair out of place, God knitted our lives. Let that sink in. He tells us in Jeremiah 1:5, “Before I formed you in your mother’s body I chose you. Before you were born I set you apart to serve me.”(NIRV version, Bible App). Please read that again. I know, it’s mind blowing. God knew the hurt, pain, isolation, the courage, the strength, the relationships, the moving from one place to another. He knew all of that because He is God! The bible tells us that our steps are ordered by God. So remember, you’ll have to walk through the valley to get to the mountain but God is there. He said He’ll never leave us nor forsake us.
“Before I formed you in your mother’s body I chose you.”Jeremiah 1:5 (NIRV)
In going through this recent trial time, God reminded me that the journey will free someone else. Y’all I’ve seen a lot. I’ve experienced a lot. I never thought I would be the person to go through some things but He knew. It’s all apart of the journey God knitted for us. I read this book called Knit byAntoinette Stewart and it reminded me that I’m fearfully and wonderfully made by God and He made no mistake in creating me. Everything I shared here was confirmed in this book. While reading it, I found another level of freedom and understanding and trusting that we were created by God’s design for His glory and purpose.
If there is a book that I would say read during this season of rest, it would be Knit. Not only will you walk away with a new perception of God, you’ll appreciate the journey. You’ll understand the pain, the purpose, and position of your life. You will walk away FREE-mentally and spiritually.
The link is below and I’m happy to share that Pastor Stewart is starting a class on May 1st. You don’t want to miss it. Join in to engage in book talks about how God knitted us, how He formed us, and how He shapes our destiny through His everlasting love! Order your copy today and get ready for the class in May!
Find out more information about this class and other projects from Antoinette Stewart at https://antoinettestewartministries.org/ .